Waiting…One Day At A Time.

I was going to write and post this when we hit the 2month mark but I’m too excited to keep it to myself.

Its been 7 weeks since both M and I quit sex. This is by so far the longest we’ve ever stayed off it. And its not because we are not hot for each other or in good terms. He hasnt travelles abroad or something. He still lives 30 minutes away from me and the love we share still feels so very fresh. Like it just got breathed into our souls a new.

Am loving the fact that we are in this together. I remember 4 years ago when we both gave ourselves to each other. We had been trying for a while and everytime we dint go through with it because of one reason or the other, part of me was sort of relived that I still had within me, my most precious gift that I had been saving for my husband come our wedding day.

Then on that particular cold Monday in July, we finally did it. We had waited for 2 years and we decided that maybe it was time beause honestly, waiting till marriage was starting to sound like a big joke. See marriage would only be practical after we were done with college and atleast had jobs. Looking into my future, I still had 6 years of Arch School that I hadnt even started yet and so it meant that we would do it after a whooping total of 8 years of a relationship. And all that just sounded like crap!!

So, there we were; both our virginities were now no more and we began to explore this new world…completely ignoring pointing fingers from close friends and even the quiet inner voice called GUILT.. What followed was often an on and off trials at secondary virginity for the both of us. Sometimes it was him who would strongly suggest we should stop. At other times it would be me. But this time, it was the both of us. And we began to even pray about it seriously.

The thing is, we have never really given it our best in the past. Probably why it never works out. I mean, how do we expect it to work out with all those weekend sleepovers still going on. Then personally, I had never really prayed about it because I was somehow not ready to give up that life of pleasure and excitenent just yet. Perhaps I felt I needed to enjoy my ‘youth’. So whenever we would agree to pray about it, it was only theoretical for me. I did not. Because I know only too well, the power of prayer and i knew that if I prayed about it, we would definitely succeed at it..this journey of secondary virginity.

BUT..
Going back to school this september kind of sets me off in a panic. Having all that freedom. See on holiday, I cant afford to sleep away from home so really…that has also worked for us. Atleast he has finished college so he will no longer stay at hostels 5minutes away from mine. Plenty of motels/hotels out there though. Plus he will be home alone sometimes. *ahem* Wow! I guess that will be the beginning of the true test of our self-control, huh.

When I start to think of that looming temptation coming our way, its easy for me to think..”oh well..i guess we wont be able to resist that so…” and I do think about that a lot. Anyway, no more thinking then. Just taking each day at a time!! Wish me luck!

Xoxo
Love.

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