Love Is Definitely All You Need

1 Corinthians 13:1-3

13:1 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.

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Forever..Always..

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β€œPeople think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and
that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate
is a mirror, the person who shows you
everything that is holding you back, the person
who brings you to your own attention so you can
change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important
person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down
your walls and smack you awake. But to live with
a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul
mates, they come into your life just to reveal
another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear
apart your ego a little bit, show you your
obstacles and addictions, break your heart open
so new light can get in, make you so desperate
and out of control that you have to transform
your life, then introduce you to your spiritual
master…”

We started talking to each other in 2005. Previously, we’d only just say ‘hi’ to each other. This time, it was a long-ish conversation and even though it involved exchanging movie dvds..I will forever remember it because thats what broke all the previous awkwardness.

He came into my life a time when I was struggling with family issues. I was soon to learn that I was not alone. He too was going through a hard time and at some point his sister, mother and him even moved out of their house and rented an apartment not so far away. This was the first thing that made us bond for the first time. We connected in a way that I had never connected with anyone before. We opened up to each other, showing our trust for each other and we conforted each other..we were each other’s shoulder to lean on.

M and I were slowly falling in love with each other. He made me smile when times were hard and made everything seem okay when it was not. Laughter became a part of my life in a very strong way. I remember my mother telling my sister to try and cheer up and start learning to smile through it all..like I was doing. Thats the day I realized I had trully changed..for the better. Almost overnight too..I had gone from sulky-in-photos too Super-Photogenic!! πŸ˜€ Haha. Am serious! You should see my photos from way back when.. I looked like I had been scolded then forced to take a photo, as more punishment. Hahahaa.

He is very easygoing without being blase and am the total opposite. I was usually the quietest person in any group of people..especially a new group of people. That soon changed. Even though am not the loudest, I am now out of the backstage. He taught me how to take life easy and quit being so uptight about everything.

I always say this to him and I always thank God for this; he is the kindest heart I know and even think I’ll ever know. For him, happiness comes naturally, I think. Haha. While some of us are struggling with a daily reminder to be happy always, he seems to just take it in stride. I want to be like him. I admire him. Definitely want to spend the rest of my life learning the secrets of his happy heart. Deep down I know the secret is God.

However, I dont know about that part where soulmates have to leave. God knows I want him in my life forever. 8 years of friendship I believe would only be fair if pushed to a lifetime.

M is my soulmate, my best friend, my lover, my partner, my companion.
Forever..Always..

Till forever dies,
Love.

Waiting…One Day At A Time.

I was going to write and post this when we hit the 2month mark but I’m too excited to keep it to myself.

Its been 7 weeks since both M and I quit sex. This is by so far the longest we’ve ever stayed off it. And its not because we are not hot for each other or in good terms. He hasnt travelles abroad or something. He still lives 30 minutes away from me and the love we share still feels so very fresh. Like it just got breathed into our souls a new.

Am loving the fact that we are in this together. I remember 4 years ago when we both gave ourselves to each other. We had been trying for a while and everytime we dint go through with it because of one reason or the other, part of me was sort of relived that I still had within me, my most precious gift that I had been saving for my husband come our wedding day.

Then on that particular cold Monday in July, we finally did it. We had waited for 2 years and we decided that maybe it was time beause honestly, waiting till marriage was starting to sound like a big joke. See marriage would only be practical after we were done with college and atleast had jobs. Looking into my future, I still had 6 years of Arch School that I hadnt even started yet and so it meant that we would do it after a whooping total of 8 years of a relationship. And all that just sounded like crap!!

So, there we were; both our virginities were now no more and we began to explore this new world…completely ignoring pointing fingers from close friends and even the quiet inner voice called GUILT.. What followed was often an on and off trials at secondary virginity for the both of us. Sometimes it was him who would strongly suggest we should stop. At other times it would be me. But this time, it was the both of us. And we began to even pray about it seriously.

The thing is, we have never really given it our best in the past. Probably why it never works out. I mean, how do we expect it to work out with all those weekend sleepovers still going on. Then personally, I had never really prayed about it because I was somehow not ready to give up that life of pleasure and excitenent just yet. Perhaps I felt I needed to enjoy my ‘youth’. So whenever we would agree to pray about it, it was only theoretical for me. I did not. Because I know only too well, the power of prayer and i knew that if I prayed about it, we would definitely succeed at it..this journey of secondary virginity.

BUT..
Going back to school this september kind of sets me off in a panic. Having all that freedom. See on holiday, I cant afford to sleep away from home so really…that has also worked for us. Atleast he has finished college so he will no longer stay at hostels 5minutes away from mine. Plenty of motels/hotels out there though. Plus he will be home alone sometimes. *ahem* Wow! I guess that will be the beginning of the true test of our self-control, huh.

When I start to think of that looming temptation coming our way, its easy for me to think..”oh well..i guess we wont be able to resist that so…” and I do think about that a lot. Anyway, no more thinking then. Just taking each day at a time!! Wish me luck!

Xoxo
Love.

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Those 3 Things

3 things in life that never come back when gone:
-Time
-Words
-Opportunity
3 things in life that should never be lost:
-Peace
-Hope
-Honesty
3 things in life that are most valuable:
-Love
-Faith
-Prayer
3 things that make a person:
-Hardwork
-Sincerity
-Commitment
3 things that can destroy a person:
-Lust
-Pride
-Anger
3 things in life that are constant:
-Change
-Death
-God
3 people who love you and who will never leave you alone:
– The Father
– The Son
– The Holy Spirit
I ask God for these three things:
– To bless you
– To guide you
– To ALWAYS protect you.

Blessings,
Love.

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Cut that Compromise!!

I bet all of you have had to compromise; more than we may be willing to admit actually. (Some of us are actually compromising right this moment. Reading/writing this instead of doing work/assignments/chores. :p )Be it with family, friends, lovers, school, work. I know I have.

well….if you know me, you know all my illustrations will have something to do with love. In this case relationships and the temptation to cheat, during. (been there done dat)

Compromise;

* Flourishes when the decision to do the right thing isnt made at the right time. For example, when you fail to pause and think before you kiss that guy…

*Underestimate the devil’s ability to lure and trap. Who knows just how far that kiss will go… If you are over at his place. You are totally screwed. Going there was just enough!!!

*Just a choice away. You either say yes or no. Its a decision only you can make. You choose to go about it or to just stay away from the guy for good if possible.

*Entices through flattery and fantasy. He says he thinks you have very sweet-looking lips and you immediately picture the two of you riding off in the sunset..to the starry nightscape.

*Through rationalization and deception. Once you find yourself rationalizing the situation, thinking of all the reasons why you should actually do it, you are soo screwed!! Dont let your thoughts wander off to that road.

*Always costs so much. When you are over and done with it..the thrill of it subsides..actually ends so fast and is replaced by feelings of guilt and self-loathing that you could have avoided.

How do we avoid it;

*Convictions. Or scruples or principles if you like. Yes…grab a stool and let it help you reach that topmost unreachable corner of you closet..in that dusty old box where you hid ’em principles once you hit the age of 20 and thought to yourself, ” Heck Yea!! Am gonna do what I want! Am young and freeee!!” Without values you fall for conveniences.

*Courage. Get the guts to flee. Run away from temptations. Dont get tired of saying NO to that situation that beckons you…welcomes you with open arms. I had to literally had to run away from a really hot guy who was trying to chat me up one day as I walked to class. I tend to fastforward things pretty much in my mind..and I could see how easy and exciting it would be to kiss that guy..or worse. :/

*Commit. Get advice. Share with a friend..or a mentor…or counsellor…or Me. πŸ˜‰ Haha. Well, dont just sit there and wait till you make some crappy decisions. Talk to someone who will snap you back to reality. Someone who will talk some sense in you and that will hold you accountable. Pray for strength. Its not easy.

*Confidence. When you tell a guy No. Say it like u mean it!! Let him respect your boldness and the truth that you stand for. Thus you wont have him around anymore, tempting you left right and centre. πŸ˜‰ Haha.

Be bold,
Love.

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10 Reasons Why I Started Blogging

I know. I know. Who cares!? Right?? Well…I do!! And for that reason, I WRITE!

1
One day I was very idle and during such times I like to visit the android market to see what new apps ’em geniuses have come up with. *no offence btw* In one of my random searches, I came across a wordpress app and thought to myself, “hmm…how different is this from ‘blogspot’..??” (i have 2 inactive blogspot blogs with like 2 posts each,…one from 2011, the other 2012..) How very pathetic!!…hahaha. The rest is history.

2
I think faster than I speak and thus have in me so many unspoken words, so much untapped energy. So I thought a blog would be the best place to release it-the energy. Oh. And Im better at listening and analysing situations in my head..sometimes playing them in my head, over and over again. (Call me an overthinker…thats how I roll!!) Organizing all these thoughts in form of writing didnt seem like such a bad idea.

3
M is very amused at how much I pretend to know the answer to everything by coming up with craizy theories to explain some of life’s intrigues. How about I try to explain it to the world too. Be one of the millions of answers found on google. B-)

4
My father once told me that I like to act like I know it All..So I thought, “hey..why not share All I Know with the whole world!!” Tell it all to a bunch of people whetger they care about it or not..whether they side with me or not. :p

5
This you might have read earlier in a previous post. I like to do self-therapy. I will write to encourage if I feel down and I will write to console when I feel like I need to be comforted. I will try to be funny when I need a good laugh and I will write the most heartbreaking story when I feel like I need a good sobbing.

6
Sometimes I talk to myself and am really surprised at some of the things I come up with; craizy or not. Hence I decided to just write all that crap down for the whole world to see, instead of talking to myself and looking totally insane!! Haha.

7
The mystery of the numbers and even types of people I might reach out to with whatever I write fascinates me and gives me this undying curiosity. Drives me to just keep writing and keep putting it out there. πŸ˜€

8
By now, you may have noticed that I am an open book. I do tell all. Mostly because I dont have a confidant…and partly because its a safe place to rant and rave. Yes..people. I have put that much amount of trust in you. Dont you dare break my heart!! :p

9
The irony of having a ‘journal’ asΒ  private as this and yet sooo out-there-for-the-whole-world-to-see is very very exciting. And yes…Nobody knows that this exists. None of my friends..no family member. Not even M. Just the other day I asked him if he would be okay with me sharing our relationship experiences on a blog and he was soo cool with it. Poor guy has no clue that this very blog has been in existence for close to a month now… :p

10
I believe that I can be of great help to someone out there by sharing my thoughts and experiences; highs and lows that life has dealt me. I am happy to be alive and well and to have the priviledge to be able to express myself to strangers and yet connect with them in a way that is so incredibly wonderful. I dont have to be the president of a nation for my voice to be heard, to make a change. Neither do I have to win the Nobel Peace prize for me to feel like I have achieved that ultimate feeling of knowing you have influenced the world. Have my name in the history books and all that other heroic, famous stuff. Haha. Maybe one day I will..who knows, but for now, words are more powerful. So I continue to write..with love..

Keep writing,
Love.

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